After 13 months devoted to this guy, this is what I get for a Christmas gift.
This, a magazine rack and a bottle of red wine, personally signed by him!
I realize we had a rough year but my fucking gawd, can a person be anymore insensitive?
Only 2 weeks before he’d mentioned buying me a ring for Christmas.
Guess he meant the smoke rings.
Then that day I popped in on him and that man in his bedroom,
he said I couldn’t see what was on his computer because it was the ordering information for my Christmas gift.
I didn’t realize you had to order the 5 packs of lighters from the internet these days?
Integrity has become the one trait that anyone I have a relationship with must possess.
I’m seeing that more & more people that are in my life are lacking that trait.
The past year was all a big joke on me.
What I gained from it though is insight in myself.
I’ve moved on now.
I’m able to laugh genuinely again.
The tears stopped after I let go & let myself feel someone new.
I’m not going to hurry into anything anymore.
I’m going to accept invitations without worrying about anyone but me.
I’m going to invite without worry.
I’m still going to love deeply and wear my feelings on my sleeve because that’s just who I am.
I hope this is the last sad posting, especially with regards to ****.
The comments I’ve gotten from everyone have been a huge help to me.
Validation I guess.
I find it funny that **** never commented or tried to state his side of the story here.
He knows it’s all true and reading it in black & white must make his skin crawl.
What goes around, comes around.