How often in one’s life do they go from having someone there everyday to having no one there at all? This is the only time I can count it’s happened to me.
I thought I was ready to move to the next level with my boyfriend and have him move in with me. But after spending about a week traveling with him & his son I realized I wasn’t ready to take on such a huge change right now. In turn, he decided we’d be better off not continuing our relationship at all. I didn’t argue because I am not going to force someone to stay in a relationship that no longer will work for them the way they want.
Now I’m here alone stuck in my void. I’ve lost all my friends. Including him, who was my best friend for nearly a year. I have no desire to turn to the internet to find love. I have no intererst in calling my old friends who’ve all turned their back on me. I know eventually I’ll make a new circle of friends, but that’ll take time. I’m trying not to let any depression sink into my chest.
Now what’s in the foreground are my 2 daughters. They’ve become my focus. Making the best Christmas for them that I can manage is most important to me. The people that I matter to most will recognize my involvement in life again & join me and stand by me once again. Until then, this is my time to really be alone & survive in my own way. I’m no good right now, anyhow.