we’re gonna play house

Shack-up. Cohabit. Share address. Room together.

Whatever you call it, hepa and I decided to do it.

I have spent the last 6 months thinking about living with him. I went back & forth with my decision several times. I almost had to say goodbye to him forever because I just didn’t feel ready to take that step. I took for granted what I truly felt for him in my heart and listened to others’ opinions about a decision that should be entirely mine. I need to live my life the way destiny intended. Everything happens for a reason.

I decided to ask him to move in because I realized, having gone through one of the toughest times of my life a few weeks ago, he really is devoted to us and will do anything to keep our relationship strong & healthy. He was there for me 100% when no one else was. I don’t want anyone else – just him.

This is the first time in a relationship where I have been able to just be me. I am not ashamed of who I am. I am not afraid of doing what I want. I am not afraid of saying what I want. I refuse to ever be in a relationship where I can’t just be me. He understands my fear about us living together. So we already agreed that if it doesn’t work out – we’ll just deal with it and move on. We’re not going to be miserable trying to work it out for all eternity. I’ve come to a point in my life where I feel I can trust myself enough to know when it’s time to call it quits. Unlike how I dealt with my marriage, having it take about 7 years to finally have the strength to end it. I wonder though…is it wrong of me to even discuss the ‘what if’s’  if we just don’t work well living together? I guess it doesn’t really matter, I already threw it out there. I’m bad about that…I have a hard time placing myself in someone’s shoes that bares the brunt of my big mouth sometime’s.

One response to “we’re gonna play house”

  1. Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

    I will act now. I will act now. I will act now. Henceforth, I will repeat these words each hour, each day, everyday, until the words become as much a habit as my breathing, and the action which follows becomes as instinctive as the blinking of my eyelids. With these words I can condition my mind to perform every action necessary for my success. I will act now. I will repeat these words again and again and again. I will walk where failures fear to walk. I will work when failures seek rest. I will act now for now is all I have. Tomorrow is the day reserved for the labors of the hopeless. I have hope. Tomorrow is the day when the failure will succeed. I am not a failure. I will act now. My happiness will not wait. If I delay, that happiness will become wed to another and lost to me forever. This is my time. This is my place. I am the person.

    TC my friends



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