I’m amazed on a daily basis by seeing again and again the amount of people I know who judge me by my outward appearance and never even get to know me before they come to their conclusions about who I really am. Most being women, some are men. Or so-called men.
Maybe I was raised wrong. Maybe I learned too much about adult stuff too early. Maybe someday I’ll regret being so stubborn about how I teach my children. But something inside me feels strongly about the lessons I’m teaching my girls and I’m going to follow my gut. There are things I can’t do much about now as far as the way they were so spoiled. They both can really be snotty little brats. But one thing for sure is…they’re relentless and when it comes to wanting something, they will stop only when they get it. But they’re good girls. I feel for any boys that cross their paths. If you know me, you know why.
Anyway, I keep to myself. I don’t stir up trouble for anyone. I don’t steal husbands. I don’t steal boyfriends. I don’t talk shit and if you do, I question your character and keep my distance. I only have male friends because women are back-stabbing bitches. I treat others better than I have ever been treated by anyone and I’m never surprised by that fact anymore. I’ve been an addict my whole life and despite the odds, I’m living my life clean and sober.
My children are judged just like I am by the same negative, fearful crowd. Why should I shelter my children and teach them that sex is bad and dirty like so many other people do? What is so horrible about calling a penis a penis? It isn’t a ‘thing’…it’s a penis. Or if my daughter happens to stumble upon my dildo, why not tell her the truth about what it is rather than lie and say it’s a back massager?
I really think our society has become too scared to admit to loving sex. We’ve been taught that those who seem too open about it must be easy or loose. We’ve suppressed it so much that anyone who shows their sex appeal openly is subject to nasty remarks and being superficially judged. Why? When did this happen? If you hide candy from a child it’s entire life, then they find it on their own without knowing what it’s all about, they’re likely going to eat more than a person that was taught early on what it is. Abuse would be highly unlikely in the latter case.
We all seek love and sex. Maybe not in that order all the time, but still, isn’t that the main goal in life? Money is just a thing. A thing we HAVE to have. I don’t think my parents thought much about raising me the right way. I think they thought that money would make it all ok. It doesn’t. Sex alone is empty and meaningless. Without love life is pointless.