One of the things that I have a huge issue with is trusting someone. How am I supposed to trust a person that has cheated on me in the past and lied and now is no where to be found. I don’t understand how someone would knowingly do this to their girlfriend if they truly valued her. How can he tell me that I’m the only woman he’s ever truly been in love with, that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, has invested the last 2+ years with me trying to rebuild the damage he did in the beginning and without any note or message or anything he’s gone?
I knew he was all lies. I know now that when I felt something wasn’t right, it really wasn’t. How can a person deceive someone like that and not have a care in the world about how that other person feels? How could he continue to lie when he held me in his arms and told me how much he loved me? How could I allow him even deeper into my soul when it was all lies? Why did I allow him to have such an important role for me when he never really cared for me at all?
I truly believe in karma. We get what we have coming to us. You can’t hide from it. Somehow you’ll pay for breaking the golden rule. I don’t deserve this. And you don’t deserve me.