I’m so pissed off!

One of the things that I have a huge issue with is trusting someone. How am I supposed to trust a person that has cheated on me in the past and lied and now is no where to be found. I don’t understand how someone would knowingly do this to their girlfriend if they truly valued her. How can he tell me that I’m the only woman he’s ever truly been in love with, that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, has invested the last 2+ years with me trying to rebuild the damage he did in the beginning and without any note or message or anything he’s gone?

I knew he was all lies. I know now that when I felt something wasn’t right, it really wasn’t. How can a person deceive someone like that and not have a care in the world about how that other person feels? How could he continue to lie when he held me in his arms and told me how much he loved me? How could I allow him even deeper into my soul when it was all lies? Why did I allow him to have such an important role for me when he never really cared for me at all?

I truly believe in karma. We get what we have coming to us. You can’t hide from it. Somehow you’ll pay for breaking the golden rule. I don’t deserve this. And you don’t deserve me.

2 responses to “I’m so pissed off!”

  1. I can’t stand a dumbass that runs his mouth about somebody they don’t even know. How do you know what I deserve bonehead? For everybody’s information I left work early with the flu that hit me like a ton of bricks and was in bed out of it for two days. My buddy had to take care of my son and as soon as I was able I got hold of my girlfriend and let her know what happened. So so much for someone crossing her path bud I already have and I don’t plan on ever letting her go. I love her more then any body will ever know. She owns my heart and soul and I am proud to say that she is MY WOMAN.


  2. hi, i’m not sure if this will be of any help, but the last thing u say in your post is the most true, in my opinion. He doesnt deserve you!! to all your why questions… i think the only answer is: you were/are in love. and love makes blind, until the moment that everything is too obvious to ignore.

    i hope someone real will cross your path, and that you find the one that deserves you! good luck!

    And a very important thing, dont be naive, but also dont build a wall around you. you’ll have to believe that not everyone is the same, there are good men out there!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

%d bloggers like this: