Control Freak


I’m a control freak. Simple as that.

I make all the arrangements if I go anywhere. I can’t enjoy anything unless I plan it. I can’t ride in your car without feeling anxious. I can’t sit by and watch you prepare a meal without getting in there & helping. Well, taking over the production. I can convince you of why I should drive, cook, work, talk…on your behalf and you’ll see it my way. Or we’ll have a problem.

I think my need to always control everything has to do with the fact that I don’t trust any one. If we take your car then I won’t be able to leave if I need or want to. I won’t be able to listen to the music I like. I won’t be able to control when I turn on the blinker to make a lane change and I can’t control when & how you stop. I will get bored & frustrated with you.

I know a faster better route. I know where to stop to get a good cup of coffee or a meal…when I let go of my control I will likely become an annoyance to you.

I don’t like feeling like I am not in control of everything you do when we are doing something together, but I don’t want you to be a door mat. You better not be. I’ll become disgusted with you.

I don’t think I’m better than you. I know I’m not. I just don’t trust.

3 Comments

  1. You? A control freak? NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! Well at least your big enough to admit it and no I am not going to argue with you about it. I Love you the way you are D. If you get to out of control I’ll just do what I always do to bring us back to reality and remember why we will always be together. The way that we fit and the way our souls are joined will never change. Your hard head and controling ways have captured my heart forever and I love you for it. I am the happiest man alive because of you.

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