Blown away

I’m totally blown away. I slam the door shut, nail the fucking thing sealed for good. And the next thing I know, my phone is non-stop. All these new, young, exciting, freaky, crazy opportunities open up that weren’t there before and I am on it. I have nothing to stop me anymore. No reason to say no. No desire to say no anymore. And I am loving this. This is the time in my life that I have been waiting for…to be me…and find out who I really am…and I am loving me and everything surrounding me. I am so looking forward to what every day is going to bring. It’s limitless and fun, so fucking fun. Tonight, I accepted an invitation and I found myself sitting next to a gorgeous, successful, intelligent man having cocktails and we were engaged in a conversation and I just looked off and saw the sun setting on San Francisco bay and I was just overwhelmed with such peace within me that it ignited a fire inside me that no one can ever ever EVER put out. And it just felt good to finally feel…good. I am looking forward to the morning like never before…so many good things in my life and I wasn’t happy enough to ever notice them before. The pain of a broken heart forces change and with that change brings new people & experiences and that is good shit! I didn’t realize just how toxic someone can be for me because my heart was so fragile & attached to them for so long. I should have cut the ties a long time ago, but I didn’t and that’s ok…I’m right here, right now & in a better position to appreciate who is really there. I just wish I had more time to do that appreciating.

There’s one person that told me that someday, this is how my life would be and I really am blown away that it came true. Thank you…you know who you are. 🙂