No matter how much I tell myself to not let shit get to me, shit always ends up getting to me. I’m tired of my habits and patterns I’ve gotten myself into. I am going to change. I know there’s more to be had out of my life than just where I am now. I’m tired of the people and the same lame bullshit. I don’t want to be any part of it anymore. I don’t care if I end up alone, I know I won’t. But I’m ok if I do. Life is too short to keep waiting for it to happen. My house will all come together eventually. I have everything I need. I just need to focus and figure out what I want. Maybe I already have it and I don’t even realize it.