I just have to say that I’ve come to the conclusion that no matter what happens, as long as my girls are happy, then I’m happy. I don’t care who you are or what you have or don’t have, money won’t bring peace and happiness unless you’ve already found peace and happiness inside you.
I don’t trust people. I trust me. I spent the day by myself on my boat thinking about a lot of things. Thinking about what’s important to me and what isn’t. Thought a lot about my parents and my childhood with them and my adulthood with my exhusband and my children. I thought about the so-called friends I have and where I am in life. I thought about how I treat people and what I do that makes me feel good inside and why. I thought about the people and things that hurt me and I thought about how to let the hurt go. I thought about where I’ve been and where I am in relation to that. I thought about what I really want and what I’m willing to do to get it. I just want peace and happiness. I don’t want to need anyone. I don’t want to miss anyone. I don’t want to regret anything. I want only to do what I need to do for my girls and for me so we are a solid strong unit. I don’t want weak people in my life and I don’t want people that make me question myself in my life. I think that’s all pretty standard shit and not impossible to achieve. Above all, I don’t want anything to do with people that lie or steal or use. I don’t bring that shit to the table so stay the fuck away from my table if you do. Right? That’s why I’ve made it my mission to really evaluate who is anywhere near my world lately. I have cut ties with so many and will be cutting ties with more. I always thought it would be hard but really it’s been easier than I imagined. Life is much easier without the drama and bullshit those people bring on. I have me. And I’m good. Happy & at peace! And always a work in progress.