I’ve got a problem with being late for everything. So I’ve decided to change it. I set myself a bedtime. I know it sounds juvenile but I’ve got to retrain myself to put myself first again. So, I’ve been flexible with a 1:00 a.m. bedtime. That should give me enough time to wind down and be ready for bed and also I’ll have enough time to sleep if I need to be up early. This is just a way for me to set some boundaries for myself again that I can’t get out of. I need to hold myself accountable. I will be journaling and keeping my record here as well as on paper. I want to see what patterns I have and what needs to change. I also want to keep track of my feelings. So, feel free to comment or just watch quietly. You know how much I enjoy the silent type. Hehe! Anyway…
3/17/15 – Tuesday
Bedtime 3:00 a.m.
Was reading an article at 12:30 a.m. and knew it was time to get ready for bed but I didn’t want to move. I was angry at the person I was reading about and wanted to make sense of what is happening. I didn’t actually turn the lights out and get in bed til 3 a.m. I woke up late and in a shitty mood. The entire day I was depressed and angry at myself and this person. I got some things done that I had to do but not as productive as I normally am. I’m determined to make it on time tonight. I refuse to have another day like this one again. I’m sick of it and of allowing other people to ruin my days.
That’s all for now.