Day 1

I’ve got a problem with being late for everything. So I’ve decided to change it. I set myself a bedtime. I know it sounds juvenile but I’ve got to retrain myself to put myself first again. So, I’ve been flexible with a 1:00 a.m. bedtime. That should give me enough time to wind down and be ready for bed and also I’ll have enough time to sleep if I need to be up early. This is just a way for me to set some boundaries for myself again that I can’t get out of. I need to hold myself accountable. I will be journaling and keeping my record here as well as on paper. I want to see what patterns I have and what needs to change. I also want to keep track of my feelings. So, feel free to comment or just watch quietly. You know how much I enjoy the silent type. Hehe! Anyway…

Day 1-

3/17/15 – Tuesday

Bedtime 3:00 a.m.

Was reading an article at 12:30 a.m. and knew it was time to get ready for bed but I didn’t want to move. I was angry at the person I was reading about and wanted to make sense of what is happening. I didn’t actually turn the lights out and get in bed til 3 a.m. I woke up late and in a shitty mood. The entire day I was depressed and angry at myself and this person. I got some things done that I had to do but not as productive as I normally am. I’m determined to make it on time tonight. I refuse to have another day like this one again. I’m sick of it and of allowing other people to ruin my days.

That’s all for now.

One response to “Day 1”

  1. George - ScenicRoute Avatar
    George – ScenicRoute

    I do not get much sleep but on the nights that I do – I feel great the next day. Try watching a movie when it approaches your target bed time but watch a movie that you have already seen. This way, it will require no “brain power” to figure it out.


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