It’s Christmas. And all I feel right now is the need to say, jealousy, greed, negativity, hate have surrounded me and my world for too long. I’ve built a wall around me that very few can withstand. I am not a person full of hate, greed, jealousy or negativity. I am sensitive, more sensitive than most people can even begin to comprehend. I love who I am and I do my very best every day. I am alone again this Christmas because I’ve chosen to keep negative people out of my life. I am not happy about this. But I would much rather be alone than be frustrated with ugly people. This year has shown me more of who I am and who others are to me. I went from being no one and having everything I want to being someone everyone knows and found that people are jealous and will make things up about me that are lies just because they are jealous. I’ve had my reputation ruined by them and in the past, this would have crushed my heart but I actually find it amusing. Especially amusing that I really could not care less what they say or think of me. I know who I am. I know what I’m all about. I can’t control what people think. I can’t control what they believe in or not. I can only control myself and my beliefs. I feel valuable and victorious and validated that I’m being the person I need to be and that is the best gift I could ever ask for this year.
I hope everyone enjoys the holidays with those that value you and that you value. Life is too short to waste any time on anyone that doesn’t think you are someone special. Merry Christmas!