Category: relentless
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grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
It frustrates me to no end when my children call while they’re with their Dad and I can hear him in the background on his phone talking with his girlfriend the way he once talked to me. It’s frustrating when I hear what he talks to them about. Why does he have to discuss our […]
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f o r g i v e n e s s
Today is one of those days. Those days where you just don’t care anymore. Where you just want to take one last drive alone down the Pacific Coast highway and launch yourself off a cliff at 150 mph into the end. Yeah, I’m having one of those days. I just want to listen to sad […]
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t r a i t s
Traits for Finding a Lifelong Mate 1. Choose someone as though you were blind. Close your eyes and see what you can FEEL; their kindness, loyalty, insight, devotion, their ability to be concerned with you, their ability to care for themselves as an independent being. 2. Choose a person who has the ability to learn, […]
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s o r r y
I’m sorry. I see what I did wrong. I had the wool pulled over my eyes. But now I see. Something new. And life is good.
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S u n d a y
S u n d a y His voice is beautiful. There’s a strange feeling I get inside when I hear him or am near him. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt. So, we talk briefly. He invites me to dinner Sunday evening and I accept without any hesitation. I was so excited. I went shopping […]
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Noooooooo! Not VD, again?!?
Ugh! Valentine’s Day. Here it is again. I will keep this as brief as I can. This day fills me with memories of disappointment and feelings of insignificance. It just reminds me that I don’t have a man in my life that’s going to take me out for a romantic […]
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a l o n e
After working on the division of our smaller assets for nearly two weeks we finally agreed on what he would take. I procrastinated for a year, dreading that list. But there it all was – listed out on my excel spreadsheet. All those memories we made together. Fifteen years. […]
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a 5-pack of Bic lighters
After 13 months devoted to this guy, this is what I get for a Christmas gift. This, a magazine rack and a bottle of red wine, personally signed by him! I realize we had a rough year but my fucking gawd, can a person be anymore insensitive? Only 2 weeks before he’d mentioned […]
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The Elevator
What a day! I never did come up with those 3 words that I was struggling to find in my previous post. Which meant I really didn’t need them after all. I walked into my ex’s attorneys office strong, independent, classy, confident yet humble. The only person there was my ex. He was sitting in […]
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Que Sera Sera
Five days of trying to connect with him to move past-move forward-move on, I finally get him to stop long enough to tend to the wreckage. Allbeit Sunday morning, 2:30 am, there was no way I was sleeping anyway…I finally get my answers. I spent the hours prior to seeing him trying to compile questions […]
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20 Doors Down
Suburbia? Scraped up knees and secret rendezvous under the cover of darkness. Feeling the hard fireplace hearth as I rest my body there-puffing my cigarette, the heat radiating on my back from the flames, looking across the table into your eyes as you said those words a year ago, a feeling inside my chest like […]
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On the move
I’m gathering my things. All my thoughts. No one cares. But I do. My accomplishments go unnoticed. To everyone. But me. My feelings aren’t important. To anyone. Except me. I gave it all I had, my husband, my poor husband, I wish he were here now to make it all ok again. But he’s gone. […]
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Christmas 2006
He & I have been having such a hard time. He’s been using what I’ve been up to as an excuse to not be with me. A few weeks before Christmas he & I decided that we would spend New Years Eve together…no matter what we ended up doing…we’d be together. I h e l […]
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Thanksgiving 2006
He wrote: *****, I Just wanted to let you know that over the last few months I have enjoyed your company very much and, at times, too much(sorry). We have our problems like all people do however ours are way more interesting I think! Happy Thanksgiving to Daddy’s girl Love to you! **** Me: Thank […]
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Cheater!
This post is an e-mail I wrote to him that was prompted by a voicemail message he left me, when he couldn’t get ahold of me the night that he told me he cheated on me. He accused me of now going out & cheating on him for revenge. That’s funny. ****, I don’t need […]
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Vancouver, British Columbia
November 3 through 8, 2006 I have been wanting to go to Vancouver for 5 years or so. I decided October 30 to make reservations to go there just 4 days later (Friday, November 3, 2006). I called ‘him’ and invited him to go too. He agreed. I made plans for us to be there […]
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nymphomaniac
That’s how his Dad described me just a few days ago. This comes two months after he him self described me as possessing his brothers 3 favorite things, naivety, money & pussy. Still not sure how to feel about such a reputation. But I do know now why I’ve always been treated the way I […]
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