In December I decided to take my best friend to a psychic to have our fortunes told for her birthday. She and I had wanted to do this since we were in high school. I always felt as if my husband wouldn’t allow me to do such a thing so this was one more thing […]
More than two months have passed since I last spoke to my ex-boyfriend and now I have someone new in my life. It has been a very long time (if ever) since I felt a connection like this with someone. I hate to compare but the differences between the two relationships I’ve had in the […]
FWB, Fuckbuddies, casual sex – whatever you want to call it. Basically having sex with a friend or acquaintance without the woes that come from a commitment to a ‘relationship’. Am I the only person that has a hard time with this type of arrangement? Being that it’s been a little over a year […]
We’re all guilty of it. But the little white lies are not what I’m writing about. They’re the big lies. Cheating. Stealing. Who you are. What you do. Your sexuality and desires. I have lied in the past about some of these things. I’m just like everyone else. I tell myself, “I can’t admit to […]
A friend of mine was recently accused of sexually harassing a female coworker. Ultimately he got fired because of it. He maintains that he’s innocent. I have no reason not to believe him. During the ‘investigation’ stage when he was suspended from work until a conclusion was made, he & I talked over the phone […]
I got married at 20. Bought my first home at 20. Had my first child at 22. Acquired my first corporation at 24. At 25 I went out dancing for the first time ever with my girl friend. I had NO IDEA what it was like out there. I never wanted to go home again! […]
Ugh! Valentine’s Day. Here it is again. I will keep this as brief as I can. This day fills me with memories of disappointment and feelings of insignificance. It just reminds me that I don’t have a man in my life that’s going to take me out for a romantic […]
After working on the division of our smaller assets for nearly two weeks we finally agreed on what he would take. I procrastinated for a year, dreading that list. But there it all was – listed out on my excel spreadsheet. All those memories we made together. Fifteen years. […]
After 13 months devoted to this guy, this is what I get for a Christmas gift. This, a magazine rack and a bottle of red wine, personally signed by him! I realize we had a rough year but my fucking gawd, can a person be anymore insensitive? Only 2 weeks before he’d mentioned […]
Everyone is initially attracted to a person by their physical appearance. That initial lure can be very strong off of appearances only. I’ve always had the theory that women that go way overboard with their make-up, hair, big fake tits, clothes and accessories are shallow and superficial. They’re usually blondes and the rest of […]
Five days of trying to connect with him to move past-move forward-move on, I finally get him to stop long enough to tend to the wreckage. Allbeit Sunday morning, 2:30 am, there was no way I was sleeping anyway…I finally get my answers. I spent the hours prior to seeing him trying to compile questions […]
I think most women can relate to this… I have this black lace dress that was very expensive. I wore it once. I bought it for my trip with my boyfriend (at the time) to Canada. I take it with me when I travel now just in case I end up needing it. But […]
Suburbia? Scraped up knees and secret rendezvous under the cover of darkness. Feeling the hard fireplace hearth as I rest my body there-puffing my cigarette, the heat radiating on my back from the flames, looking across the table into your eyes as you said those words a year ago, a feeling inside my chest like […]
Written 10/1/06: Hi ****, Last Friday and Saturday we talked briefly about things. I got a lot from the conversations even though they were short. You said you thought I need my space to re-prioritize my life. You also said that I have nothing to offer you anymore, that my life is a mess and […]
This e-mail was sent to him 9/28/06. Everything that has happened lately has me really wondering about your real feelings ****. I’m beginning to feel that you’re not being true to me or true to yourself about what you want. You know (maybe too well) how I feel. Aside from me not telling the truth […]
This post is an e-mail I wrote to him that was prompted by a voicemail message he left me, when he couldn’t get ahold of me the night that he told me he cheated on me. He accused me of now going out & cheating on him for revenge. That’s funny. ****, I don’t need […]
November 3 through 8, 2006 I have been wanting to go to Vancouver for 5 years or so. I decided October 30 to make reservations to go there just 4 days later (Friday, November 3, 2006). I called ‘him’ and invited him to go too. He agreed. I made plans for us to be there […]
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