In December I decided to take my best friend to a psychic to have our fortunes told for her birthday. She and I had wanted to do this since we were in high school. I always felt as if my husband wouldn’t allow me to do such a thing so this was one more thing…
Tag: boyfriend
One thing is for sure
Hepa and I fight a lot. We’re both very stubborn. We’re constantly arguing over who is right. We must break up at least once a week. We both have a hard time trusting. We live too far apart and he needs to learn to just nod his head “yes” sometimes and just give in (that…
open relationships
What exactly is an open relationship? My definition of ‘open relationship’ is there’s no commitment to any one person. So isn’t an open relationship the same thing as ‘friends with benefits’? In other words, if a person wants an open relationship he or she is a polygamist. And that word (for me) stirs all sorts…
FWB
FWB, Fuckbuddies, casual sex – whatever you want to call it. Basically having sex with a friend or acquaintance without the woes that come from a commitment to a ‘relationship’. Am I the only person that has a hard time with this type of arrangement? Being that it’s been a little over a year…
f o r g i v e n e s s
Today is one of those days. Those days where you just don’t care anymore. Where you just want to take one last drive alone down the Pacific Coast highway and launch yourself off a cliff at 150 mph into the end. Yeah, I’m having one of those days. I just want to listen to sad…
t r a i t s
Traits for Finding a Lifelong Mate 1. Choose someone as though you were blind. Close your eyes and see what you can FEEL; their kindness, loyalty, insight, devotion, their ability to be concerned with you, their ability to care for themselves as an independent being. 2. Choose a person who has the ability to learn,…
Noooooooo! Not VD, again?!?
Ugh! Valentine’s Day. Here it is again. I will keep this as brief as I can. This day fills me with memories of disappointment and feelings of insignificance. It just reminds me that I don’t have a man in my life that’s going to take me out for a romantic…
a 5-pack of Bic lighters
After 13 months devoted to this guy, this is what I get for a Christmas gift. This, a magazine rack and a bottle of red wine, personally signed by him! I realize we had a rough year but my fucking gawd, can a person be anymore insensitive? Only 2 weeks before he’d mentioned…
s k i n d e e p
Everyone is initially attracted to a person by their physical appearance. That initial lure can be very strong off of appearances only. I’ve always had the theory that women that go way overboard with their make-up, hair, big fake tits, clothes and accessories are shallow and superficial. They’re usually blondes and the rest of…
Authenticity
In my book of life… The chapter is closed. It’s a brand new day. My responsibilities to myself, to my children, to my employer are the background to my life. Taking care of me by removing the negative components that have tried to ruin me for the past thirteen months or so has been done….
Que Sera Sera
Five days of trying to connect with him to move past-move forward-move on, I finally get him to stop long enough to tend to the wreckage. Allbeit Sunday morning, 2:30 am, there was no way I was sleeping anyway…I finally get my answers. I spent the hours prior to seeing him trying to compile questions…
Black Lace Dress
I think most women can relate to this… I have this black lace dress that was very expensive. I wore it once. I bought it for my trip with my boyfriend (at the time) to Canada. I take it with me when I travel now just in case I end up needing it. But…
20 Doors Down
Suburbia? Scraped up knees and secret rendezvous under the cover of darkness. Feeling the hard fireplace hearth as I rest my body there-puffing my cigarette, the heat radiating on my back from the flames, looking across the table into your eyes as you said those words a year ago, a feeling inside my chest like…
Christmas 2006
He & I have been having such a hard time. He’s been using what I’ve been up to as an excuse to not be with me. A few weeks before Christmas he & I decided that we would spend New Years Eve together…no matter what we ended up doing…we’d be together. I h e l…
Epiphany!
Written 10/1/06: Hi ****, Last Friday and Saturday we talked briefly about things. I got a lot from the conversations even though they were short. You said you thought I need my space to re-prioritize my life. You also said that I have nothing to offer you anymore, that my life is a mess and…
Clouded
This e-mail was sent to him 9/28/06. Everything that has happened lately has me really wondering about your real feelings ****. I’m beginning to feel that you’re not being true to me or true to yourself about what you want. You know (maybe too well) how I feel. Aside from me not telling the truth…
Vancouver, British Columbia
November 3 through 8, 2006 I have been wanting to go to Vancouver for 5 years or so. I decided October 30 to make reservations to go there just 4 days later (Friday, November 3, 2006). I called ‘him’ and invited him to go too. He agreed. I made plans for us to be there…
